I can't stop crying. Brittany is being really hurtful towards me, obviously meaning to and I just can't take anymore, I really can't. I was trying to do this for the best... I know I hurt Brittany. I know she has every right to hate me, but being blunt about it is hurtful awl I can go out n party since I dont have to come home to see Sarah anymore. As if it was a chore in the first place. Well, fine. I have deleted the Brittany folder I had, made sure I looked at it, had a good cry and I'll move on since its obvious Brittany hates me. She forgets she lied to me... *wipes tears*

I wish you all the best, Brittany... without me.

Anyways, I've moved my account and I am now if you wish to watch me. This account has too many bad memories for me... Sorry guys.

Sarah

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This video might answer a lot of why I'm not wanting to be here...

I think I need to take a break offline... I need it. If you wish to contact me at all, my e-mail is demonessqueen@hotmail.com

Sarah

I made another account just for video blogs and family stuff on youtube! So I'll be mainly talking about my life there and at livejournal. ^^

LiveJournal ~ [link]

Video Blog ~ [link]

So check them out if you interested. ^^ Toodles.

Phew I'm just home and I've had a busy wusy day! ^.^ I went to stay at my sisters, 's and had fun although, my sis got very stressed because there was a huuuge spider in the kitchen! @_@ So I took the broom n attacked it! x3 WAA! *poses!* But now my sis awl scared to be on her own because of them. @_@ I be worried for her tonight, but she really shouldn't let them bother her! I went n played Code Veronica all from the start and back to the Tyrant! Have like loads of rounds like flame rounds, grenade rounds, ect and still can't bloody beat the manly ass bastard! xD

Tyrant: Rawr! Fear me with my crazy ass swipes of doom and my manly buttocks and non existant penis!

*fears for Claire goes flying out plane!* xD!

I gotta admit, I totally think Wesker kicks major butt in that game! I can totally see the attraction! But still, Riccardo is always the man for me. heehee! x3 Brittany is my girl! mwuahahaha! *steals!* >_>; I am greedy! >=B!

Oh Oh so also played Haunting Ground some, giggled and Ricc giggles back..that always happens. It scares me... @_@! Then today we had to go and tidy the rest of the stuff out of my old house, which was a bitch! I haaaate lifting stuff! ARGH! >_<;! I am not strong! *grooowl!*After that we all went to the Gamestore and Lisa n mom spoiled me rotten... >_>; Although I must pay them back! xD! I gots, a Zelda wristband, Guitar Hero: 80's and a wireless guitar for the Guitar Hero games, two cheap games which was Vampire Hunter D and Street Fighter Collection! ^__^! And I also finally got a maestro card so can buy stuff online... >_>; *shall be pennyless forever now!* Then we went back to my sister and played Guitar Hero n had dinner... but wait till you hear this strange story! @_@;;

Alright, for people who don't know when I was way back at highschool, many years ago now, xD I had a major crush on my Graphics Teacher... well I would say it was stronger than a crush. I was OBSESSED with this guy! He always reminded me of Reeve from Final Fantasy VII ~> [link] <~ and GODDD, I fancied the pants off Reeve back then! SHAWING! He looked just like him but with a shirt and tie and pants. Oki so I loooved the living daylights out my teacher and damn, once I left highschool, I never seen him again! So I forgot him for my own sake really! He is also in the band, Man Must Die who are quite popular! x3 Right, so guess what? My sis told me today he lives upstairs from her... o_o and...he has a white german shepherd... >_____<;;;!! I will officially steal his dog! Although I have no interest for him like that anymore, and he has a gf. x3 I so remember hearing folk from my class at highschool mention he had a gf and my expressions was all.. o_O.......-_-; xD! I was devestated! I also remember a very swell time when it was just myself and him in the class and he was helping me study for my exams...he was all sitting on my desk, leaning over me...and I swear I would have passed out from a nosebleed right there and then! xD! Anyways, I just found that very strange and my sis thinks maybe he loves HG! Oh come on, that is veru unlikely! xD But then, I'M STILL STEALING YOUR DOG, FOOL!! >8D!!

So yeah... ^_^; Thats my day really. Just got home, exhausted and pretty much going to retire to bed very shortly... I am deep down sad about something because Brittany asked me to come over for her prom in November but I had to ask my mum of course and she said no... saying that her n Paul would be at Thailand then and she would not let me go..So I'm scared and worried...about disappoining Brittany more than anything... I love her, and I would go to see her anyday! But my mum...its like I live with my mum, so its her rules or I'll be out on the street pretty much. I'm sorry Brittany... *sigh* I really feel Brittany will just end up leaving me for letting her down... ;_; *hugs knees* and she means everything to me. *sigh* oh well...

Oh I also drew some stuff last night such as Krauser n Wesker practice sketches that I scan tomorrow n colour and some other stuff on my big list. ^^ So I am pretty worn out... Andrew also texted me back and he seemed fine with me so thats good. I guess I'm silly for getting hurt that he can't come to my birthday...but no one is coming... only Jasmine has really offered to come see me and thats it. I really wish most of you guys lived closer to me... *sigh* I feel like I have no friends at all here. Jasmime really and thats it.. She has been there for me and done so much for me and is a true friend. I have major hassled her by text message recently so am sorry, Jas. xD! *sigh* Well I'm off to bed. Too tired to even play any of my new games. ^_^; *yawn* Much love to you all, dear friends! Especially my Brittany. ~

Sarah